Summer Goals

i know it's important to have goals so i decided that since i'm not doing much else this summer, i should make some goals and work on those things. unfortunately these goals weren't that hard to come up with...which means i have a whole lot of improving to do as a human. my first goal is to be more friendly...to try harder. sometimes i just don't try. sometimes i'm too quiet because i don't want to be disruptive or rude or whatever. i think i should stop thinking about that so much and just say stuff. be more friendly. i'd also like to be more real. sometimes i'm not sure which me is the real me. i have the sarcastic me and then i have the nice me. i don't remember which is the most like who i am. i'd like to be more real with people...more of the real me and i think the real me is a combination of both. also, lately i've taken to having this weird accent thing in my voice. not an accent so much as a different way my voice works. i think i'd like to stop that. that's pretty much just one goal. another goal is to be better friends with people. i have these people that are in my friends circle and i like them but i don't really know them. i don't call them on the phone. i have short 5 minute conversations with them when i see them randomly. i'd like to change that. i'd like to be better friends with them.

a while ago i decided to join a group at church so i could practice making friends. at the time i was hoping to move away and i knew if i moved away i would be needing to make friends so i wanted to practice. after i realized i would be staying around, i decided to stop practicing. maybe i should start again. maybe if i practice enough, i'll get better and it'll become part of me. or maybe i'll practice and it'll be so foreign that i won't feel like myself. either way, i should at least try.