procrastinate, stay up late...it's whatev.

Currently, it's super late and I realize I am going to regret this decision to stay up and mess around when I have to get up early tomorrow. That's what I do, though. I regret things...even small things. I regret that I didn't do anything amazing this weekend. I regret that I don't have any ice cream in my freezer. I regret that I didn't go out of my way to make more friends in college. I regret stuff. It's sad and maybe it shouldn't be but it's has become part of me...part of the conversations that take place in my head. The reason I regret things is because I am a hardcore procrastinator. I put things off and ignore that little voice in my head. I guess regret and procrastination are best friends.

My weekend was pretty much useless. I think my favorite part was preparing for my trip this summer. I just want to go so bad and I want to leave tomorrow. There are kinks to work out and I'll be honest, working out kinks isn't something I love to do. I'm not so much a detailed planner. I'm more of a "I'll know when I see it" "I think about that later" type person. I'd love to spend the time camping with a tent and a river and a sleeping bag but I see the many flaws in that. The major flaw, however is that I'll be tripping by myself and it just seems that camping as a single female could be a problem. My other option is to drop money on a hotel every night. Also, someone told me to check a travel place, like priceline or travelocity and get a cheap room that way. But that means that I'm tied in and I just don't want to be tied in. I want to end up where I end up when I end up there. I want to take the slow route or the fast route or whatever route I want because it will probably be the only time in my life that I will drive across the country just because. I can see the trip going either way. It can be amazing and beautiful and relaxing and refreshing. Or it can be long and boring and terrible. It's all about my attitude. I think it'll be hard to be bored when I'm surounded by the mountains or along the ocean or anywhere but...here. I hope this trip isn't something I regret. I hope it's not something I procrastinate.